Learning to Be Still

I've been a fighter my entire life. Nothing has ever come easily to me. I entered this world fighting and I am positive that I will exit this world with my fists held high.

Sometimes I feel like I am constantly on alert, that I always need to be aware of what is going on in order to run interference for myself or someone I love. Marilyn says that I throw on my cape of fairness and I feel it is my duty to "save the day". Makes me laugh, but she's probably right. I have always felt I was strong enough to fight battles that others are too weary to take on themselves.

A few blows have come my way and I'm finding myself in a position of having to be still and think before I act or react. A friend of mine shared the quote:

 "To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders."

I've thought about this quote HEAVILY over the last couple of months. The last two weeks I have thought about it every single day.

I'm learning to be still. I'm learning that I can't control everything. I'm learning to allow myself to depend on those that love me. I'm learning to forgive unfairness. I'm learning. I'm learning. I'm learning.

I'm succeeding. I'm failing. Depends on the moment.

I want the universe to surrender to me. I desire the beauty of peace to envelope me and embrace those I love. I long for comfort to wrap it's arms around us and never let go.

So, I will learn.